Lions and tigers and bears, oh my! I really don’t know how I should feel about this. A part of me is like, 35 is nothing, girlie! You’ve made it! You have a 16 year old and a 6 year old and you are doing great things! Age aint nothing but a number and you have people telling you everyday you don’t look 34! But then there is this other side of me that is like WTH? Thirty-five? Is there something wrong with the calendar? How can this be?
I’ve never wanted to be one of the moms that wanted to be a teenager—dressing and acting like their children. I’ve always made it a point to embrace my age. Age is something you can’t avoid, no matter how much make-up or botox or plastic surgery one can get. That birth certificate doesn’t lie!
I guess it’s because I always thought I would be in a certain place at 35 and I am not quite there yet. I imagined that at my age, I would be a business owner with a five year’s worth of income in the bank and I would be living in a house that I owned in Miami or West Palm Beach. I would be at that point where I could say, yep, I’ve made it.
I am not there. Not even close. And while I am thankful for my life and all that I have, I am also forlorn—there is so much work for me to do. So much that I want to accomplish.
Will I ever get there? Will I ever be able to retire? Will I always be striving to get to that next step and not even be close?
Ugh.
So what. I am almost 35 and that is that. I cannot turn back the hands of time, nor do I want to. If I could only have time stand still for just awhile. I know—wishful thinking!
So in about 30 days, I will be 35. Me and my girlfriend Notorious Spinks (aka Yo-Yo) and I will be hitting the freeway and heading to Atlanta for a weekend of girls night out foolishness. My b-day falls right before Labor Day (Sept. 3rd, get the online orders ready now so you can ship my gifts!), so it will be party time!
You only get one 35th birthday!
After turning 40 last summer, I can honestly say that we truly get better with time. Embrace your age and all of the wisdom that comes along with it. A good thing to do is write your younger self a letter. It would be interesting to read for you. Have fun & enjoy.
I like the idea of my younger self writing my older self a letter. I just may do that. I wrote both of my kids a letter when I was pregnant with them and plan on giving it to them when they turn 21. Words are powerful. Thank you for the suggestion. 🙂
You're not the only one doll, I'll be turning 30 next year, and feel like I'm so way behind from the life I imagined I would be living now. BUT don't ever lose hope on owning that house in West Palm Beach. I never lose touch with my dreams, they're what keeps me going every day. You never know, you might be just a month away from realizing your dreams.
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Oh, I will always dream and work on getting them accomplished. I was wallowing in my own self pity when I wrote this, but honestly speaking, I live a wonderfully blessed life. Thanks for reading.
Ok, that is greatm you little youngster!
(I'm about to turn 36 in Sept.) hehehehe…. rofl! 😉
I am not that much younger than you! LOL. You look fabulous BTW!
What a great post! I'm turning 40 in less than a month and kinda feel the same way. Have a great time in Atlanta!!
Congrats on turning 40! Since I have written this post, I am embracing my upcoming birthday. Another year on earth means I have been blessed! Thanks for commenting 🙂
I will be turning 35 in about a month myself and I just sat in the car today waiting for the kids to come and reflected on my life and really have a hard time believe that I am in the middle of my 30s. I have so many questions? What am I supposed to be doing at 35?