Last week, I had my annual Well Woman’s Visit with my gynecologist and after all of the pomp and circumstance, we got down to business. My doctor asked me “what are we going to do for birth control? Are we ready for a tubligation?” I cringed. Hell no, I am not ready. I mean, I do have 2 kids (age 17 an 7) but it ain’t over until the fat lady sings. RIGHT?
I am not sure where I want to go with this. A part of me is completely done with the notion of having more kids—I am 36 years old now and no spring chicken. When I was pregnant with my 7 year old when I was 28 years old, it beat my butt! That pregnancy took a lot out of me and I wasn’t even 30 yet—the thought of carrying around a baby for nine months at my age is a little scary. And yet I am not ready to close the door on the idea if you know what I mean.
My doctor also gave me the option of getting on Mirena, an IUD which stays implanted until you are ready to get pregnant. No having to think about taking a pill everyday. It sounded like a good idea, but I am not too keen on walking around with a foreign object in my body. IUD’s have never been my thing.
After discussing other methods, we were back on the tried and trusted pill. I have been on The Pill off and on since I was a teenager and it never failed—both times I got pregnant were when I was trying to get pregnant and stopped taking it, or when I skipped several days, and tried to double up and didn’t use a back-up method. When used correctly, The Pill always worked for me. And since it has been around longer than any other hormonal birth control, I tend to trust it more than these other “new” fangled contraptions.
I am NOT ready to close my womb forever, but I am not ready to have another baby. I am not even sure if I want to have another one at this point. So I am at that fork in the road—36 years old, 2 kids, and still on The Pill. I felt a little odd about this, but my Gyno assured me that it is okay to be on The Pill at my age as long as I am not a smoker and I don’t have any major health issues.
Am I the only one that doesn’t know what they want to do when it comes to having kids? Are there any other 36 year old women out there still on The Pill or other birth control because like me, you don’t know if you want to have additional kids (or kids at all)? Let’s chat, Cubes!